Choosing between Harry and Harry

Its indeed a tough journey between a free mind and one that is committed in bondage forever..I was hardly 20 when my destiny tied knots with Ambi (Anantha Pathmanabha iyer). As they say a person is what his mind is.My mindset was entirely different from what it is today.My good old childhood days were churned in a big mansion that roofed an age old orthodox Brahmin family in south India.I grew up believing in things like this is good and that was bad..cz the religious books say so..n all that.I was raised as a race horse with very little options in life..Basically in India every single person is just another victim of circumstances.Definitely none of us on earth have a choice regarding who our parents are gonna be.But in a country like our's,we have no choice to anything.The kind of schooling we get depends on the financial situation of the family and at times also on your sex.i.e if you happen to be a male specie,you have full rights to go anywhere to learn anything to any extend.But for females,its like you get to invest just a quarter of the funds laid aside for you on education.Rest is kind of reserved for "Wedding".Most Indian parents follow the motto "Profession for guys and marriage for girls".We are also restricted when it comes to a job level.You have passion for one but if you are gonna be the only supporter of the entire family you are forced to choose the profession that fills your pockets the most.O.K,i agree this happens in every other country..But just imagine such a case when it comes to marriage??? Your options get restricted initially with the factor "Caste".Even if you are in love with a "Hindu" you still cant marry another Hindu..You go for "Brahmins" n that too the one who speaks the same regional language..(This in my case).So your options are lowered again.Then again you go for factors like "Family background", "Horoscopes", "Job of the guy".....Blah n Blah n Blah..Finally there is very little or rather no scope for "Love".Leave alone love,for those horoscopes n well paid pockets good looking Indian barbies often tend to settle down for "Barbarians".So,i basically had no expectations that my parents would find me a guy whose horoscope,looks,pocket-size and character-all of them happen to be compatible with me..Its really tough..i swear..

The unattended asset..

Its high time i put an end to this relationship...a relationship that has given me nothing more than confusion in life..its kind of a tug of war between all those desi values i had sucked up in my mind in the course of 25 years in my life and the logical me..who has always tried a different route to look at things..always...who has always fought against all those so called "RULES" for a happy life ahead.."happy" they say...huh...wonder how many of them really are..Still the tug of war continues..cz this time its between two aspects of happiness..not unable to understand which one is more muscular...on one side do i have this guy who slowly crept into my mind while i was fast asleep..built a small nest there n now its kind of an addictive relationship between him n me..n on the other end,i have this person who actually is the owner of my mind..who legally has acquired power over myself n who has won a larger part of it by sowing seeds of care n shelter over me..But he has put me aside as an asset with walls around it,hoping that his darling wud be safe enough..least did he think that some intruder would some day jump those walls n try his luck..Now for me..i wonder if i should offer this intruder all those sweet fruits owned by another..Why not ! i sometimes feel..why should i let my fruits rot for nothing...hhmmm...Still dont get me?Wait for my next post..